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桑田 怜恩 // Kuwata Leon ([personal profile] babermetrics) wrote2015-05-15 11:24 pm
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Yo, you've reached Kuwata Leon! I'm probably busy right now, buuuut just leave me a message and I'll totally make time for you later!

( voice/text/video/action? )

(( also NSFW warning in some of the below! ))
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-05-21 08:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ Don't say "annoyingly"...

It's admittedly uncomfortable for Togami to seriously think about this, too. Leon making all these jokes and assumptions is irritating in part because he doesn't want to have to think about it in detail. ]


...You keep making broad generalizations across arbitrary categories of people. For someone who is styling himself as a sexual enthusiast, you have a very narrow perspective of sexuality. It's a common trait among the masses, who are marketed a particular kind of sexual dynamic, but it is nevertheless aggravating to try and have a discussion with someone who consumes mass media uncritically, and states opinion as fact.

[ Huh. He didn't really want to have this discussion, but that was more detailed than he expected himself to come up with. Even though he had a subconscious understanding of all this, he might never have tried to put it into words before. It's not really considerate of Leon's feelings, but it's considerate of his own feelings... ]
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-05-24 04:55 am (UTC)(link)
...Hmph.

[ He doesn't really want to think about these accusations, either. But in the interest of making an effort, he considers it anyway. He doesn't know what to think about "making everything negative"—he's only telling the truth, isn't he? But there is a point to be made about his level of openness.

Is there any problem with indulging the question? He can't think of any off the top of his head that aren't related to stubbornness or pride, so he decides to go ahead. ]


I find such labels irrelevant. If I choose to pursue someone or accept someone else's advances, their gender is not a factor. I do not know how you expect me to be enthusiastic about a lack of preference, particularly when I have no interest in the vast majority of people.

[ He made it negative again anyway... but it was by just telling the truth again!! ]
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-05-26 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ Togami glares over at Leon; it's a reflexive counterpart to his cheeks heating up just slightly in embarrassment. Ugh. Of all the people he had to say that to, it had to be the one who—through VERY EXTENUATING CIRCUMSTANCES!—was a witness to him engaging in something sexually charged, and even a participant in it. Nnnng.

Again, he has to gently remind himself that it's not actually that dire of a secret that he might actually enjoy the company of other people, ever. He has to relax. Besides, if he gets too worked up and avoidant of any further contact or intimacy with Leon, then how can he move forward with the whole reason he came here in the first place? ]


You can keep your imagination to yourself. Perhaps I am so reticent to put myself in a sexual context because everything I say is instantly blown out of proportion. [ Which is pretty true. Fukawa alone is a terrifying force of wild speculation, and she's hardly the only person who ever had a sexual interest in him. But, wait— ] Why do you care?
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-05-27 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ You'd like to be blown out of proportion? he almost asks. Even if I say you're clearly 100% homosexual and incredibly repressed, you're not going to argue with that one—?

That wouldn't be productive at all to say, though. He bites his tongue on that one.

Well why do you think I'm holding things back, when every time I share my thoughts, you throw a tantrum? Aren't you just assuming that I'm hiding something that you actually want to hear, somewhere?

But he can't see the point of that either, and it seems a little too whiny for his tastes. Especially after the complaining about being objectified, which was whiny enough for a few weeks. Wow, he's managing to avert two incendiary arguments, though? This is clearly an otherworldly level of self-control.

Even though that does mean it's a long pause before he finally comes out with something. ]
...There is nothing stopping me. Is there anything stopping you?
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-05-28 10:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ He's not quite sure what to think of all that, but it seems like a lot of stuff he doesn't really want to deal with... He definitely doesn't want to comfort Leon over his relationship woes, at least. But, while the blushing thing is awkward, at least it's relevant to him. And if he thinks about it—it's not that unpalatable.

He sighs, and decides to also just go with what he's thinking deep down, carefully looking over at the wall instead of at Leon or the TV. ]


If you're as faltering in approaching them as you are in approaching me, I can see why you aren't having much success.

[ What he's thinking was just something kinda assholish again... but at least it's addressing the tension.

Nah, not good enough. This is addressing the tension: ]
You're interested in experimenting sexually with men, aren't you?
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-05-29 06:24 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, my mistake. [ His voice is flat and sarcastic. ] I had thought you planned on having sex with literally every man in the colony.

[ This is also a defense mechanism against awkwardness, though. Just, Togami's defense mechanisms tend to be condescension and ridicule, so... I mean... he can't really talk about who's having any success in their approach. And even though he's not really panicking the way Leon is, he's also floundering about how to proceed here.

Maybe if he were 100% guaranteed interested in Leon himself, he could accept taking charge and allowing Leon to follow his lead. But if hypothetically they were to experiment, it would be pretty much as experimental for Togami as it would be for Leon. Like he said before—how much enthusiasm is he supposed to summon for that? He doesn't want Leon to think that he's into him...

Still, on a list of "Men in Cerealia Togami would Sexually Experiment With", Leon would be at the top. It doesn't mean much more than that, but it means what it means. On a list of "Times in Togami's Life in Which it Would Be Convenient to Sexually Experiment", Cerealia when nothing is actively going on is actually also near the very top of the list, even with all the weird surveillance state aspects. That's not a bad combo overall, right? If Leon is willing.

But if Leon is willing, he's still being very awkward about following through. Togami wouldn't want to be completely passively seduced either, but the current situation is still miles away from his comfort zone of sexual expression.

Ugh. Even so, this is way too much thinking and not enough doing, and the thinking is just tumbling in circles anyway. He hates it when things get like that, more than he hates looking like a person who would willingly offer to have sex with another person (gasp). ]


I don't care what you do with other people anyway. What is relevant to me is if you are trying to work up to asking me.
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-05-30 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Nothing's going to just "happen" without any prior discussion.

[ SPONTANEITY IS DEAD!!1 ...But it's also pretty accurate, with Togami. He has too much control over himself to just "go with the flow"... even though he is particularly indulgent lately.

And yet, despite what he says, he can't think of what else he wants to say to advance the discussion himself. "Yeah"... ]
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-05-30 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I have never initiated a so-called "makeout session".

[ And he's not really thrilled about the idea of starting now. They can both keep talking around it until their intentions are clear on both sides, and then one of them will cave, and it will probably be Leon. ]
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-05-30 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ugh! He can't... actually argue that. Saying that didn't count would imply that there are circumstances in which it would "count", which is not a road he wants to walk down.

But: ]
And you were there for that, so shouldn't you already know the answer to that question?
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-06-01 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
...Well, the circumstances were different then. [ He finds himself forced to admit at least some kind of difference. ] That was for my own short-term benefit. This would be more of a mutual arrangement. [ He's at least referring to "this", while Leon is still speaking in more distant hypotheticals. ] I wouldn't get anything out of it unless you also explicitly consented and had a similar goal, so I don't see how any action could be taken without prior agreement. Don't you think so?

[ He finally looks back to make eye contact with Leon for the first time in a while. ]

But you refuse to commit to an answer about the specific situation that we are currently in. So how do you expect anything to happen?
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-06-02 05:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ah...

That's certainly something happening, although it's more of an upheaval for how gentle it is. Something about tender intimacy makes his skin crawl with an alien sensation. Does sex have to have the kissing part? It hadn't been that bad before, though. And it wasn't "bad" just now either, on a purely physical level. Maybe he needs to set the pace more clearly.

After a brief frown, he leans in to close the gap between them again, kissing Leon more firmly. ]
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-06-03 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ This is still—weird. Despite all the leadup and theoretical talks and prior enjoyment of this exact same activity, part of him just wants to slam a hand down on the ABORT button here and erase this moment from existence. But what would his reason be for that? That he's kind of embarrassed and out of his depth and vulnerable and he doesn't entirely know what he's gotten himself into?

If he has a comfort zone without any practical purpose, that he finds himself stuck in when it's inconvenient, it's his duty as a leader of the free world to smash it to bits. Isn't it?

This may be a weird time to think about duties as a leader of the free world, but it at least calms him down enough to shift closer, turning his body towards Leon's, hand hovering in midair before finally settling on Leon's shoulder. And then, when he's already calm, it's easier for his focus to drift towards things like the warmth of another human being, and the feeling of a soft touch in his hair. ]
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[personal profile] succeeder 2016-06-04 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
[ Even if he's been tuning out the television this whole time, it's filtering back into Togami's consciousness, too. It's a little more welcome now than it was before. Sure, the videos are still stupid and trite. It seems inconceivable that anyone could get off on something like this all by itself. But if it's encouraging noise and heated dialogue, in the background of him actually getting physically intimate with someone... it's mmmmmaybe a little helpful.

Leon's sudden insistence in the kiss is surprisingly welcome, too. He parts his lips with a soft gasp, quickly flipping through his memories of last time in the back of his head. ]

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