[He's not disinterested, that's for sure, though he hasn't actually thought about it much either, beyond those weird thoughts that happen to him when he's around... any man that's even half good looking.
But his head is too fully of too much to just jump in after returning to this place so soon.
[Damn, maybe that was saying too much? He's still no good at judging what to say to guys versus girls . . . here he'd been ready to imply even more than that, because guys know what it's like, right? But maybe that's not how it works.
Not that William's flustered reaction isn't pretty cute, so it's not exactly getting him down just yet.]
...It is a bit of a surprise is all. Hearing that. I wouldn't have thought you would. At all.
[They're friends and all that, but William's aware that his personality is difficult at best. There are probably people Leon knows that are far more pleasant to deal with than himself.
And it's just a bit strange in general, hearing that people think of him that way. At all. William's aware of the possibility, but his mind always likes to avoid directly confronting it. The idea that anyone is actually attracted to him that way.]
He grins, though, relaxing that the reaction wasn't as bad as he'd feared it might be.]
. . . It ain't like I wanted you to know. And I don't mean to make it sound like I've been pinin' after you for months or something. It's not really that kinda thing!
Heh . . . yeah, about that . . . things're a little complicated with my love life right now . . .
[He laughs too, and leans against William's side, companionable. It's not like this moment is making things less complicated. Kissing him wouldn't uncomplicate his life. But damn if it wouldn't be nice.]
[He leans back against Leon wondering exactly what had gone wrong. And if it was something he even wanted to know about? But well, he had asked the question.]
I guess a lot has been happening without my notice.
Heh, 's been a while since we caught up, huh? It ain't that serious . . . I just kinda ended up pulled in all these different directions. You know how that feels? It's nothin' like back home, though. I guess that's the problem?
[He gets comfortable there where he is. A little contact makes everything better.]
[He leans just a tiny bit harder in response to that. Months . . . even though it's not on his side of things, it still feels kind of lonely. He's just glad William hasn't forgotten him or moved on or whatever.]
I mean, I've liked girls enough to get with, and I've liked a few girls enough to really go after 'em, but I've never liked a girl so much I was like—okay, I'm ready to date her! It's like that.
Yeah, I guess that's it . . . like, they're both perfect! They're totally different kinds of girl, but they're both perfect! I'd date either one of 'em! How'm I supposed to choose just one? Besides—I'd do it if I had to, but . . . it's not exactly like I wanna stop screwing around with my friend, either . . .
[You know, his friend with benefits. He lowers his voice considerably, and once again he shoots a glance at Togami's closed door.]
[He says it with no venom as he reaches over and ruffles Leon's hair for a moment.]
Well I cannot exactly speak to how you should go about the situation. I am not the best at making choices. But even someone annoying once told me that even not choosing is a choice.
[He ducks away from the ruffling and reaches up to push his hair back into place—but it does make him smile, anyway, and once his hair is fixed, he's just leaning obnoxiously back in again.]
Yes. There's danger everywhere. As for what's going on and if I'm okay, that is a long story.
[He pauses and thinks about how to start.]
I don't know if I ever mentioned it, but when I first came here, some had died a little bit ago. He was an important friend and servant to Dantalion, the one I've mentioned to you a few times. And things started going badly because of that. Everyone back home had become distant from me, pulled in different directions by the events that set in motion.
On a positive note, my Uncle did come back alive. And he managed to get back a lot of money, by working with my former upper classman to open some factories. But even that is... complicated right now.
But in the midst of all that, Dantalion came back, with a new friend, Gilgamesh, who was another demon. And Dantalion was acting strangely...
It is alright to ask questions. But anyways,that guy, Gilgamesh, I think he's taking advantage of Dantalion pretty badly, but he also made a point to me that I hadn't considered. There are bad wars going on in Hell right now and Dantalion is in the middle of it. He's been forced to throw himself into the bloodshed head first. Because I wouldn't vote for him. Or any of them. And they have no choice but to go down the more dangerous path. And hah...
[It's all such a mess how to even explain.]
But Dantalion spoke with me on Christmas even and I thought we had come to an understand of sorts. We resolved a of things and I told him I wanted him to stay by my side. And he wished for that too, but then refused. He said that the end of the world was coming and he needed to protect me and then he just... left.
[He sounds a little pissed now.]
Who just does that, huh? You can't go on about how we both want the same things and then just leave like that. I am hardly anyone to be coddled!
[Yeah this is what is really annoying him right now.]
Dude, what the hell . . . this is the kinda stuff that happens to you when you go back home for a while?!
[WILLIAM, YOUR LIFE. How do you even comfort someone over all this? That's crazy! Leon leans into him, but he's not sure what to say; it's all too complicated. Political? Not to mention the crazy demon part? Not to mention—]
[He pulled on his shirt collar a moment trying to think of how to word it, because he didn't actually want to lie, even if the need to express denial was strong.]
I don't know! [He's now gone from his collar to his tie, fiddling with it.] I just know I want him around and maybe...
Well, one thing at a time.
[That was a complete non-answer okay? But he's trying.]
You just tell a man you want him to live with you and people take it the wrong way...
[But seriously he's going to make himself simmer down and for real, be truthful.]
But I don't know if it's that I want that or not. I find him attractive and all...
[That's something he can admit after having been forced to think about it in this place and things that have been silently clicking into place back home for a while.]
But I don't know if I want that sort of thing with him. But... I wouldn't mind it I think. Maybe.
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[He's not disinterested, that's for sure, though he hasn't actually thought about it much either, beyond those weird thoughts that happen to him when he's around... any man that's even half good looking.
But his head is too fully of too much to just jump in after returning to this place so soon.
But the next line, his eye widen.]
Wh-what? Really?
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[Damn, maybe that was saying too much? He's still no good at judging what to say to guys versus girls . . . here he'd been ready to imply even more than that, because guys know what it's like, right? But maybe that's not how it works.
Not that William's flustered reaction isn't pretty cute, so it's not exactly getting him down just yet.]
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[They're friends and all that, but William's aware that his personality is difficult at best. There are probably people Leon knows that are far more pleasant to deal with than himself.
And it's just a bit strange in general, hearing that people think of him that way. At all. William's aware of the possibility, but his mind always likes to avoid directly confronting it. The idea that anyone is actually attracted to him that way.]
It's flattering actually.
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[This fact is highly debatable.
He grins, though, relaxing that the reaction wasn't as bad as he'd feared it might be.]
. . . It ain't like I wanted you to know. And I don't mean to make it sound like I've been pinin' after you for months or something. It's not really that kinda thing!
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He laughed a little at that though, even though he was still beet red.]
I would hope not! Not after the girls you mentioned. I would be a bit worried otherwise.
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[He laughs too, and leans against William's side, companionable. It's not like this moment is making things less complicated. Kissing him wouldn't uncomplicate his life. But damn if it wouldn't be nice.]
Oops?
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[He leans back against Leon wondering exactly what had gone wrong. And if it was something he even wanted to know about? But well, he had asked the question.]
I guess a lot has been happening without my notice.
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[He gets comfortable there where he is. A little contact makes everything better.]
I never like liked anyone back home!
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[Arguably with less romance involved.]
Really though? You never felt that way about anyone before?
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I mean, I've liked girls enough to get with, and I've liked a few girls enough to really go after 'em, but I've never liked a girl so much I was like—okay, I'm ready to date her! It's like that.
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[He relaxes, feeling comfortable. When he leaves for real, he's going to miss this, a lot.]
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[You know, his friend with benefits. He lowers his voice considerably, and once again he shoots a glance at Togami's closed door.]
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[He says it with no venom as he reaches over and ruffles Leon's hair for a moment.]
Well I cannot exactly speak to how you should go about the situation. I am not the best at making choices. But even someone annoying once told me that even not choosing is a choice.
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[He ducks away from the ruffling and reaches up to push his hair back into place—but it does make him smile, anyway, and once his hair is fixed, he's just leaning obnoxiously back in again.]
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[It's said in such a sour way. But he's going to continue this leaning war anyways.]
A 'friend' of Dantalion's. If you can call it that. Needless to say, things are... rather touchy back home right now.
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[He pauses and thinks about how to start.]
I don't know if I ever mentioned it, but when I first came here, some had died a little bit ago. He was an important friend and servant to Dantalion, the one I've mentioned to you a few times. And things started going badly because of that. Everyone back home had become distant from me, pulled in different directions by the events that set in motion.
On a positive note, my Uncle did come back alive. And he managed to get back a lot of money, by working with my former upper classman to open some factories. But even that is... complicated right now.
But in the midst of all that, Dantalion came back, with a new friend, Gilgamesh, who was another demon. And Dantalion was acting strangely...
Are you following so far?
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[Damn. William's life. Leon can only nod along with the story.]
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[It's all such a mess how to even explain.]
But Dantalion spoke with me on Christmas even and I thought we had come to an understand of sorts. We resolved a of things and I told him I wanted him to stay by my side. And he wished for that too, but then refused. He said that the end of the world was coming and he needed to protect me and then he just... left.
[He sounds a little pissed now.]
Who just does that, huh? You can't go on about how we both want the same things and then just leave like that. I am hardly anyone to be coddled!
[Yeah this is what is really annoying him right now.]
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[WILLIAM, YOUR LIFE. How do you even comfort someone over all this? That's crazy! Leon leans into him, but he's not sure what to say; it's all too complicated. Political? Not to mention the crazy demon part? Not to mention—]
—Are you and this guy, like, a thing?
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[Wait oh god what? How did Leon even get to that? And leave it to Leon to go that route]
No! We're not! We're just...
[But really there's no good, honest way he can answer this. Except to be, well honest.]
I... it's complex, okay. But no, we are not a couple or anything like that.
[Yes. Well no, probably not. Maybe. Sort of. He doesn't know. That's the problem honestly.]
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[He can't help but pursue it. He loves this kind of thing. And if William didn't put him off earlier, maybe he's not that straight after all.]
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[He pulled on his shirt collar a moment trying to think of how to word it, because he didn't actually want to lie, even if the need to express denial was strong.]
I don't know! [He's now gone from his collar to his tie, fiddling with it.] I just know I want him around and maybe...
Well, one thing at a time.
[That was a complete non-answer okay? But he's trying.]
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[Damn, he's pretty cute when he's so flustered.]
I'm a little jealous . . .
[He laughs that off, though. Not seriously so, but just enough for him to thoughtlessly say it, half teasing.]
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[But seriously he's going to make himself simmer down and for real, be truthful.]
But I don't know if it's that I want that or not. I find him attractive and all...
[That's something he can admit after having been forced to think about it in this place and things that have been silently clicking into place back home for a while.]
But I don't know if I want that sort of thing with him. But... I wouldn't mind it I think. Maybe.
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