I do not dislike him. [Which she realizes now isn't the same thing as liking him romantically.]
We met at the library a while ago and he asked me if I wished to have sex with him, and at the time I had not thought much of it and did not mind. I did not think it very important. But then when I asked him if we were going to use condoms, he said that he had plenty of sex without ever using it once. I told him that I worried there would be the possibility of him having caught a disease by doing so and offended him. So I promised him that if he would only go to the clinic and be tested, ensuring his own health and safety, that I would have sex with him. I wished to come to a compromise, but I have increasingly found that there are things for which one should never compromise.
There is good in him. I still believe that. But at the same time, I am not certain I am entirely comfortable enough with the thought of us having sex. He has made promises to me before only to tell me that he only did so under duress. I have always thought that if he did not want to make such promises that he does not have to. I do not wish to force him to comply just as I do not wish for him to force me or to try and coerce me to comply with what he wants.
[That's a long, long reply from her for what should be a simple question but it's less of her talking and more of her thinking out loud. Because she knows he's listening and so she isn't worried about hiding what she wants to say or about possibly troubling him or having him tell her that she talks too much.]
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I do not dislike him. [Which she realizes now isn't the same thing as liking him romantically.]
We met at the library a while ago and he asked me if I wished to have sex with him, and at the time I had not thought much of it and did not mind. I did not think it very important. But then when I asked him if we were going to use condoms, he said that he had plenty of sex without ever using it once. I told him that I worried there would be the possibility of him having caught a disease by doing so and offended him. So I promised him that if he would only go to the clinic and be tested, ensuring his own health and safety, that I would have sex with him. I wished to come to a compromise, but I have increasingly found that there are things for which one should never compromise.
There is good in him. I still believe that. But at the same time, I am not certain I am entirely comfortable enough with the thought of us having sex. He has made promises to me before only to tell me that he only did so under duress. I have always thought that if he did not want to make such promises that he does not have to. I do not wish to force him to comply just as I do not wish for him to force me or to try and coerce me to comply with what he wants.
[That's a long, long reply from her for what should be a simple question but it's less of her talking and more of her thinking out loud. Because she knows he's listening and so she isn't worried about hiding what she wants to say or about possibly troubling him or having him tell her that she talks too much.]