Yeah . . . this's my first time here, y'know? Which I guess means it's been—that'd make it a couple years.

[Sure, he can't remember those years, and it feels unfair that they should count. But he's working on the whole remembering he's 19 thing, on remembering there's stuff he doesn't remember.]

That's way too depressing when I put it that way, though. Anyone else would think I, like, never get out of the house when I say stuff like that! But you know why.